Kirsty Gilmour is still putting on the personal pressure to provide a thriving final flourish to her Tokyo 2020 Olympic Games qualifying campaign.
The 26-year-old, who made it to the 2016 Games in Rio, is currently in position as the 20th qualifier on the Badminton World Federation’s Race to Tokyo standings.
She’s also a full 30 spots up on next-best Briton, Jordan Hart of Wales, with England’s Chloe Birch third on the list.
With a little over four months to go until the qualification period closes in late April and Gilmour set to start 2020 playing at BWF World Tour events, on paper she appears well set to close out her place at the Games.
However, she is pushing herself not just to qualify for Tokyo, but get there as highly ranked as possible.
“I actually still do feel the pressure,” Gilmour said at the recent Italian International. “Whether that’s external pressure or pressure that I put on myself; probably the latter.
“I just want to qualify as best as possible. For Rio I was seeded 11th, so to get in and around the seedings would be really, really helpful.
“I better get a move on the start of next year to make that happen. It’s going to be a tough ask at this point I think, but anything is possible.”
And that pressure is precisely what Gilmour wants on her back as she believes that when the heat is turned up, it brings out her best.
“I think any time that I’ve actually been in a highly pressurised environment, the vast majority of times I’ve performed pretty well,” she added.
“Maybe I just put that on myself and have that all the time so when it’s intensified in an arena or in a final, or a medal match, then I know exactly how to cope with it.
“I’m looking forward to the big pressure moments, because we play so many tournaments it is hard to apply that pressure all the time.
“There are some tournaments you’re going to have to put less in because it’s on.
“My next one that will be pretty pressurised, the Indonesia [Masters] in the Istora Senayan is always a pretty special experience, so that will be pretty cool.
“But I guess the European Championships will be the next championships that we’ll play.”
The 2019 season has seen Gilmour finish runner-up at four events, the top of the podium remaining elusive before her campaign finished with a quarter-final run at the Italian International.
Putting inconsistencies behind her is Gilmour’s first aim for next year, with places around the world’s top 30 offering a greater chance of direct entry to the main draws at top-tier events.
“I really don’t feel like I’ve reached my top level this year, maybe once or twice I’ve kind of touched it,” she said.
“But I’ve really struggled to get any sort of consistency which has been pretty frustrating.
“But there have been a lot of silver medals, so I guess if you’re really looking at the stats it would be okay.
“I’ve dropped in the rankings if anything, I haven’t gone up and you’re always just looking to progress; you want constant progression.
“Sometimes that may be unrealistic, but it’s what every athlete wants.
“It’s been a bit of a disappointing year to be honest, but I’m still doing enough to stay in and around that top 30.”
Gilmour’s trip to Milan for the Italian International – squeezed in as “a little extra” in her own words – was the 19th event of a busy year.
A hard-earned break awaits before the new season’s tour begins in earnest in the Far East, followed by participation in the high-octane Premier Badminton League in India – for which she was snapped up for the equivalent of £835,000 by the Chennai Superstarz at the pre-season auction.
But it won’t be all mince pies and festive TV for the shuttler this holiday season.
“I’ve just had a text from my S&C coach saying that we’ve got a fitness test in on December 23, so can’t wait for that,” she said.
“But it’s going to be really nice to spend some time at home. I told everyone that I would be home for most of December and I have not been.
“It’s going to be really nice to spend Christmas with my family, because I’ve spent the last two Christmases in India with the PBL; it’s going to be really nice to be home this year.
“I’m going to skip Malaysia [Masters], but I’m going to go Indonesia, Thailand and directly into the PBL which is shifted back a bit this year.
“I’m going to play for the Chennai Superstarz – with a Z – this year, so a new team and I’m really excited, it looks pretty good.
“The first year I played must have been the end of 2017, and then end of last year. I’ve been part of the Bengaluru Blasters, last year was the Ahmedabad Smashers, and this year is the Superstarz.
“It’s nice to change up the teams, everyone gets mixed in, it’s a really cool experience.
“It’s a lot more fast and furious. It’s best of three games up to 15, so it’s pretty short and sharp, and it’s a lot of fun.”
When the PBL is done and dusted, Gilmour will be back in Europe to represent her country at the European Women’s Team Championship in France.
She said: “It’s nice, I’ve not travelled to some tournaments with a few people that are going to be on the team so it’ll be an interesting experience.
“I’m going to be the grandmother, there’s a bit of an age gap between me and the next person, but it’s always fun to play team events.”
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